Is it faith when you meet someone after 2 years again? Or just pure coincidence.
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The first time I met him was during a sport tournement and I haven't spoke to him. We played against eachother, and he was the guy who kicked me during the match. It might be not what he wanted to do, but it still happend. 

Now 2 years later he shows up at my work and is talking to the managers, just when I started my first training group of the year. We might work for the same company but I haven't seen or spoken to this guy in 2 years, we only spoke shortly during the tournement. I didn't even know his name, but the moment I saw him there was something about him that attracted me to him. I think he had the same feeling. 

Why? 

I walked to him and asked him if he was the guy who kicked me and almost broke my legs. Well excatly I didn't have to ask him that, he just said he was the guy who kicked me and said he was sorry again, that he didn't meant to do that. So he didn't do it on purpose. 

And I think that is what got us connected to eachother, the fact that our first meeting was like that. We made fun of eachother from the first moment on, because our fist meeting was not your typical meeting 2 years ago. 

The days after that we started talking more and started getting a good connection. I don't know what really happened between us, but it was something special for my feeling. We started sort of flirting and making jokes and doing everything we could do for one another. 

Every time he walked in he asked me to go have some breakfest, to go for a smoke, or just sit next to me and just starts talking to me. Every time he was sitting somewhere around me, and everybody knew we liked one other and started to make jokes about this, to him and me. In the beginning it was oke and were just talking, and some touchings on the arm or the back or the head. Just a little different than you normally do with other co-workers. 

For me it was clear he really liked me as a person, because he liked to hang around with me. Keeps asking me for a smoke or just to go for a beer after work. He always asked me for the sigaret things, and most of the times I had those things for him. He was always there for me when I needed his help for some of the things. 

The funny thing I noticed about him was, the moment I was not there at work because I was giving training. He always asked the other trainer where I was, even before saying good morning to him. The moment I arrived at work after giving the training, he was always the first one to spot me before I even walked in the door. Was always reacting happy to see me and most of the time immediatly wanted to talk to me about everything. Or asking me to go for a smoke or just coming to sit next to me to talk about work or every day things. He has always been extra nice to me and kinda flirting with me. There was one day where I came back from giving training and we were talking with coworkers, but than started talking with each other. Or kinda annoying one another and for me it felt like the usual way of talking to him, but for other people it was a lot like flirting. And even one coworker joked that he felt sick and said than oh wait these two are together again. Apparently we were so bad flirting even though we were in the middle of alot of coworkers. But for me it is just the way I have always talked to him or went around with him. 

I had a lot of fun times with him, even went to the beach with him and his girlfriend and some friends of him. They are really nice people, I think his girlfriend even likes me because she was trying to talk to me eventhough her English is not good enough. So that was alot of fun. But the time we went to the beach, he spent alot of time with me asking me to go swimming, go for a beer. And also on that day we were kinda flirting with eachother, but not to much because of his girlfriend. 

The first time I met him I exctally didn't know he had a girlfriend or not, because he never really spoke about her when he was around me. But I started asking more questions about it en eventally he told me he had one. I one time when we had lunch he invited her to so that was the first time I met her and after that we started saying hi whenever we see eachother. 

After the day on the beach his friends also began to like me and when I met them again at a big work party, they even introduced me to more of their friends even before the guy did. So I start to being more in his circle, with his Portugese friends, what is kinda funny. 

I think he also likes hanging around me because he is starting a new project and in the 2 months he has been sitting with us. He has seen what I do for my job and what I have learned in such a small period of time and not with a lot of guideniss. And I know he still needs a trainer for his project and he wants me to be this trainer. He keeps saying it to everybody and asking everybody if I can come with him. Sometimes I don't know if he is joking or if he is serious about this. Because he also keeps joking with other people about this. 

But when we are just the two of us during breakfest or during a break he always wants to talk about the supervisors or about the fact that he wants me as trainer and what is expecting of me than. So when we are together we are in fact talking about simple things but also alot about work and what is in our minds, how we would like to see things. So at those moments I know he is true, but when we are with other people I don't know if he is joking or not. So I don't really know if he wants to take me to his project because of the professional I am or he just wants to keep me around him. Sometimes it is really difficult to say with him. 

I have to say the fact I saw him again a few months ago made me want to be a better professional not only to show him I am good at what I do, but also to show to other people that even though I don't have a lot of experience and I am young. I am still someone who learns quick doens't need a lot help to do what I have to do. I deliver what I need to deliver and try to deliver more than is needed, because I always try to be the best eventhough I know it not possible always try to find the limit to work on it. 

To be honest one side of me wish I could see how far I could take it with him and if we would be a good match or not. Only because you can see and feel that we have some kind of tenstion but we both know we can't be together. He is happy with his girlfriend and I don't think he could give me what I need in a relationship and I don't think that I could give him what he needs. Defintly with his 3 kids would be really weird. Next to that I don't really speak his langue, so it would be really hard communicating with them. Maybe it is just that I am afraid to take the step and that I am not ready to be serious right now. And his girlfriend is really nice, so I would't want to break that up. I don't want to be that person to break up something good what people have.

This is just a little part I like to share with you, my thoughts and feelings about this guy.